"If champagne's for celebrating, then i'll have a martini."

that means i really need to get loaded on LOTS of martinis or something haha.

i've never been the studious type or the kind who cares much about studies (though some think otherwise, seriously some do) but i find myself feeling a teeny-weeny bit worried and a whole lotta uneasy about how my results are gonna turn out.

i keep sighing la since the last paper. i know wallowing in self-pity is a disgusting behaviour but i'm only gonna do it for, maybe, half a day more haha. after which i'll do a 180-turn, suck it up and move on.

SO I WILL GET OVER IT and you don't have to deal with this emo shit any longer.

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okay, half a day's gone now so i'm (almost) over it. am going to paint the town red in a while and indulge myself at swissotel with the chocolate buffet. YAY! not.

how come i still don't feel happy? okay, happy thoughts, happy thoughts.

Labels: freakin' future, hate school, town

11:08

had major mugging cramming sessions the past one and a half weeks and now, i'm just burnt out. R said if i go into the exam hall with the right state of mind, with shitloads of confidence, half the battle is won. haha i swaggered my way to my seat okay, howzat for confidence. i'd better get my 50% for all my papers but that's unlikely cause ten minutes into the papers and i felt totally facked.

and yesterday, though it was the last day of the horrible exam period, it was sucky as hell. i'm still pretty pissed at the school, i mean chemistry AND physics together? c'mon, that's six freakin' hours of freakin' science! God, it was no wonder i zoned out during the chem paper.

so after all that, i'm just screwed. i'm totally banking on conditional promos, think i've been a good girl all-year round. Santa, i really WANT to be promoted, i don't wanna stay back. the though of it scares me shitless. if that happens, i'm gonna beg my parents to send me to aussie or someplace happy.

Labels: hate school

Wednesday, October 03, 2007 21:26

TWO science papers in ONE day. overkill, i say. chem paper sucked, always the sucky one. letters and numbers all jumbled up together just drive me up the wall. physics was... i shall not complete the sentence, don't want to jinx it. whatever it is, i feel royally screwed. guess it's a case of too little too late, yet again.

ican'tstopsighing.

kay enough emo shit.

Labels: hate school